Just Do It: Learning to Move Before I Felt Ready

Dear Not So Secret Diary,

There have been many times in my life when I felt ready. Cheer competitions. Violin recitals. School tests. Big moments that carried pressure but also certainty. Looking back, I understand why readiness came so easily then; it was earned. It was built through hours of preparation, repetition, and correcting mistakes. The nights spent visualizing the win I wanted and days spent training for it.

I was only ever ready because I prepared. So when I was handed a big moment in my business (one that mattered deeply) and I didn’t feel prepared at all, I didn’t know what to do with that fear. There was no rehearsal or practice run. Just the quiet understanding that it was time, even though I didn’t feel ready.

The lesson that came with that experience was one I didn’t expect: a promotion from God usually feels like a punishment. I lost people and places that once felt familiar. I questioned every step I was taking and second-guessed decisions that used to feel simple. Running a business stopped feeling exciting and started feeling exposing. Every move felt visible and permanent. Yet, I was more capable than I gave myself credit for. I hadn’t done this version of the work before, but every quality required for it had been building in me for years. Discipline. Vision. Resilience. Faith. I wasn’t unqualified persay. I was just unfamiliar with the role. Looking back now, I can see that what felt like removal was actually preparation. What felt like punishment was promotion to the next level.

My struggle during this time was twofold. First, I had to let go of the old version of myself; the one who relied on crutches to stand. The one who had destructive thought patterns, survival instincts, and constant fight-or-flight. I had to release ways of thinking that once protected me but no longer served where I was going. Second, I struggled to accept the new beliefs. Beliefs that I was worthy and capable. Capable of a better quality of life. Worthy of healthy relationships. Deserving of ease, beauty, and stability. Accepting those truths felt harder than chasing survival ever did. If I’m honest, there was a season where it felt like I was intentionally running in the wrong direction. Afraid of what would happen if things actually worked out. Afraid of who I would become if I stopped struggling.

I’m not proud of how long I resisted, but I’m grateful I eventually stopped self sabotaging.

The blessing through all of this was the firm foundation my faith had already built. That foundation carried me through storms and steadied me in seasons of sunshine. It reminded me who I belonged to when I forgot who I was. It kept me anchored when doubt tried to convince me to turn back. Yes, I benefited from the work I had done, but this stability wasn’t a reward. It was inevitable. It was the result of seeds planted long before I ever knew I would need their fruit. I can see now that the preparation wasn’t wasted. It was just hidden.

If you wait until you’re ready to change your life, it may always feel just out of reach. Readiness often comes with the comfort of knowing how many hours you’ve put in. How many mistakes you’ve already made. How predictable the outcome feels. But this January, as we step into uncharted territory, I’ve learned something different. Sometimes the bravest thing you can do is move forward without that comfort. To trust that preparation still counts—even when it doesn’t feel complete. To forge ahead anyway. I didn’t feel ready then. But I’m on the right path now and that has made all the difference. If you haven’t downloaded your free Welcome Package yet, visit our Resources to get yours now. It’s there to support you as you move forward—even if you don’t feel ready yet.

Warm Hugs,

Capree'